kenshidragon

I've been writing. A lot. Sooo theraputic. I haven't been around this site much and i probably should stick around on it every now and again. If for nothing else than to keep writing. I'm feeling better in the world. More content with myself. I'm glad that it's possible to use words in such a way. Maybe when i'm feeling up to it (like probably tomorrow) i'll put up some of the poems i've writen recently. otherwise ehh I'll just sleep everything else away. I think it's a good choice after all. xD

eh. seriously. i don't even know anymore about anything. I've kinda lost all sureness in anything and everything in my life currently and i feel like if i don't find some form of release i'm gonna do something i'll regret. beyond the norm life is difficult, love is difficult, hell even caring about someone is difficult now. the main person i talk to about everything is gone atm and I. JUST. DON'T. KNOW. I'm pissed off on one side, lonely on another side, and i'm hating my self and wishing things could actually go my way for once all at the same time. Seriously i want some fucking control but let's see if that even happens. Rant=end. Whether y

I don't know it's been happening all the time i guess. when you wish you meet the person who'd actually go out with you when they think you're a freak, crazy, etc. Then your friends tell you they just don't know you.... well when will they know me? I know i go through the same thing as another one of my friends. and i feel for him more so cuz he's really a cool guy and well it's not cool for people not to like him. Damn i hate liking people. i'm sure most people feel the same way but hey what's a journal there for but to vent? i'm mostly worried i might do something not so smart less i get this feeling out of the way. Love's complicated neh?